Monthly Archives: April 2011

Unconditional Love

Immediate and unconditional love is what I get from my dogs no matter what I do or how I feel. Somehow they know when I’m down and give me extra loving. They don’t demand too much most of the time, and seem to understand when I’m being a slacker. I don’t have to call and remind them about our friendship needing nurturing, they are always there, dependable. Of course I am always there for them too. I have to feed/water/walk, etc. And clean up accidents (ick).

They are ok with my bad habits, my being less than svelte and my cranky moments. And I put up with chewed up items and demands to go outside. So it all evens out. They do hog more than their share of the bed though. Need to work on that.

I do believe they are the most low maintenance relationships I have. They snuggle at just the right times, don’t argue for the most part and aren’t too demanding. Perhaps we do need to pay more attention to our dogs’ behavior. They may have something on us.


You Haven’t Been Sleeping All Day, Have You???

Of course I haven’t been sleeping ALL day. I took a nap in the morning and you caught me napping again in the afternoon. What was the point in dozing off in front of the computer/book/tv? I just am having a bit of a rough day and sleep has my name written all over it.

When the Depression is rearing its ugly head, symptoms are always exaggerated. Some days it’s just easier to succumb to the overwhelming urge to sleep. I also have anemia and some other medical issues that may contribute to fatigue. Sleep is also a wonderful escape from reality, of which I am well aware. Nothing wrong with a little escapism once in a while. At least it’s not self-destructive.

Apparently this behavior is of concern to others. As long as I’m keeping up with day-to-day stuff, I don’t think I’ll worry about it. I know I’m supposed to push myself to exercise (hey, it was cold today, and the stupid dog broke her leash…told you I was having a rough day!) i.e. see previous post, but it just wasn’t happening today. That middle of the night migraine sucked too.

Well, I’m just a ray of sunshine today! Let’s hope and plan for a better day tomorrow.

But I Don’t Like to Exercise (whine)!

No kidding, and yes, I’ll take some cheese with my whine. I’ve felt more down and fatigued lately, so of course my therapist suggested I should get more exercise. Eeek. Exercise has been found to be extremely helpful in alleviating depression symptoms and it’s something you can do for yourself.

So why doesn’t walking the dog when the weather is decent count? Not my fault the weather has been crappy. Needless to say that hasn’t helped my mood either (see previous post regarding Melancholy Weather). I’m not the kind of person who enjoys exercise for exercise’s sake. I do like to do things that are purposeful and are outdoors, like biking, walking in the park, etc. I just don’t seem to find the time to do these things consistently and incorporate them as a routine part of my life. I know it should be a “priority” but there just doesn’t seem enough hours in the day.

I do enjoy gardening and when the weather finally breaks will spend many hours out in the yard. That can be an upper and lower body workout! But the key is that I am accomplishing something and I am preoccupied, so I don’t realize I am exercising. I would find walking on a treadmill just excruciating, even with music or tv to occupy my thoughts. Somehow I better find some way to tolerate more exercise (I’m not a group or class type person either) or bad weather. Would love to hear others ideas for making exercise tolerable.